“Starry Night”

Every night I wake up to see,
A whole universe gazing upon me

The little lights, those shiny eyes
prying on me, that starry night

Looking at them picturing me
I feel so special in my own me

Fabric of night upon which thee
Pierced are the diamonds, I desire to be

Times in which dark is the night
I stare into abyss, A dreadful sight

Dark reminds me of sins I sinned
Dark brings out the darkest in me

World is slept unknowing agony
The pain, the wander, the sleepless in me

Awaiting the horizon, that beaming night
Reminds me of good, rising inside me

Holy is the Almighty
Created the light, in darkest of me

Being the Struggle

"Being the Struggle"

I'm staring blankly at the sky
I'm looking up and wondering why
Why do I have to be here
Alone and full of fear
The cold wind chills me
As i think of who i want to be
The impossible dreams
And the unthinkable things
No matter how hard they are i try
But in the end i always cry
I cant be who i want to
I cant always see things through
I'm always alone in everything
I'm attached to this life with a thin string
When ever i fail
Inside i feel like a storm of hail
My dreams are to hard
Every time i try i end up scared
I always end up back where i had to start
Everyone knows I'm not the one who is smart
No matter how big my dreams
I never let anyone hear my screams
I want to be someone who is there for any and all
And who cant ever fall
But i cant be who i want to be
I'm not someone people want to see
Up to now i always believed
That i would never be deceived
But now i know
That it was all just a show
My hopes are crushed
My dreams got mushed
I can no longer think to what might happen
All i believe in people will dampen
I have nothing to look forward to
I'm left here to think all of this through
All i know now
Is that no way no how
Will i ever be someone